Saturday, June 15, 2013

M is for Moving On...

 

Moving on. 

It's hard to do.

Several months ago we moved and it was something I wasn't 100% sure about but it had to be done. I know it's nearly a year - well it will be in July. Since I have had a lot of issues with letting things go and moving on. 

There are so many little things I miss...

The small bathroom at the old house that everyone would fight over getting in.

I miss sitting on my old front porch looking out to my best friends home...

I miss the kids playing in the pasture along with the neighbors kids (again best friends)...

I miss the small town and knowing everyone...

I miss our homeschool group...

I miss our church...

I guess I just miss the "normality" of it all...

Yeah that has to be it. It's not that I'm unhappy with the new life I have and the new home I have, which is double the space. This home has 3 porches compared to the one. It's the 9 years that my children grew up and had wonderful memories in one place and to leave it kinda makes me feel empty. I know we will make new memories and we have already however half of my heart misses the other part...

I know moving on has got to happen but it's come with much hurt and anxiety. It will heal in time...


We prayed A LOT over what to do when moving and I do feel that we followed the path that God placed before us but like so many wonderful followers of God, I don't want to... There I said it... Following God is a hard thing and you have to listen to his plan for your life and no your own. 

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. - Proverbs 3 - 5

As I think of it not going my way I think that I just have to keep moving on. I have to have better faith along with a better trust. I pray more and hope that the Lord will heal my broken heart and spirit.

In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.  Proverbs 3 - 6

The memories I have are precious and I am thankful for them... They are memories I hope to always have. Nothing can take that away. 

M is for knowing that I have to Move on... Make new memories with new people in new places... It doesn't mean that I forget...


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