Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Do You Have The Passion To Homeschool?

I read those exact words in my Bible Devotional last week and it still has me pondering. 

Do I have the passion to homeschool? 

I did but that was years ago, you know, when I first started - That was the first thought that came through my mind!

Awful, I know but honestly I didn't know if I did have the passion...
 Why I wondered? 
Well because I don't have the passion to homeschool anymore. 

It's lost under all the years of trying and going and worry and guilt. I have sat and thought in length about that one simple question way to long so I figured if that was on my heart it had to be on someone else's too.

Now I hope I can say I'm alone. 

I'm tired.

I'm tired of trying to do it all.

I'm tired of thinking I have to do it all.

I'm tired of teaching.

I want to have fun.

I want to be fun.

I want to enjoy teaching my kids.

So what do you do when you have lost the passion to homeschool?

You pray. 

You pray hard.

See Satin wants nothing more but to take my passion for homeschooling because then he wins. That very thought made me so mad that I actually cried coming home from work one evening. 

Over the week I have had some situations come up that helped me see I just have to stop thinking so much about what I am not doing or what someone else is doing, stop and get myself organized and just focus on only me and my children. 

Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. Psalm 139:3

What makes people invest in their children? 

What makes them spend years teaching, I've taught my children with love and respect for 9 years so far and never really realized that the passion is what has kept me going! It was there all along just muted and hidden behind all of the things I didn't need.

Watching my children learn new things has kept me going even when I didn't realize it. Us laughing and joking daily on mistakes or lessons learned have kept pushing me. Jesus has kept me homeschooling my children, he has kept pushing me and helping me all along.

We share love, loyalty, faithfulness and a deeper relationship than most. 

I am come that they may have life and that they might have it more abundantly. John 10:10

I will make certain that I have the passion to homeschool so when the next question is asked I can answer it with boldness! 

I will not let Satin take my joy or passion to be with my children and homeschool.

What about you?

Jesus, Thank you for your little road trips, without them my days would be dull. Thank you for the joy you have given me in watching my children and for allowing me to be yours as well as theirs.